I watched a documentary about Down Syndrome this weekend, I probably should not have watched it, maybe I wasn't ready for it yet. Right now she is just a baby, and she needs me, but someday she is going to be an adult who needs me. The documentary was called Monica and David, it was about a man and woman in there early 30's who were getting married. The whole thing got me thinking, would my daughter ever fall in love, and if she did would she get married someday. It just made me very sad to come to the realization that she may never know what it is like to fall in love, she may never hold her own baby in her arms, she may never do the things that other people do everyday and take for granted.
Thinking about these things truly breaks my heart, what if she never experiences these things and truly wants them. It is times like these that I blame myself for her hardships for her future, I know they say I didn't do anything to cause the Down Syndrome, but what if I did, what if it is caused by something they just haven't discovered yet.
I know I am supposed to be positive, I am supposed to see the blessing in all of this, but it is hard sometimes. I know I gave her life, I know I gave her a chance and I will give her all the opportunities that I can. But what if there are things I can't give her, it scares me. Sometimes you just want to crawl up in a ball and pull the covers over your head, and other times you are so happy to have this person in your life. There is an upside and downside to all of it.
Hello there, my name is Jody. Im a mother of four. My youngest Levi has ds. He is adorable. I watched the same documentary and I have to say it gave me hope. It made me excited for the future to see what will happen. I so want my Levi to be able to get married and be happy. J also know that he has two brothers and a sister who will have children that he will be berg much involved with. We as parents can never fix everything for our kids. All we can do is the best we can to give them what they need to be happy and good citizens.
ReplyDeleteI know sometimes it is scary, but the unknown always is.
Each day makes it a known and things always look a lot better when it is known.
I know I found out about my son having ds when I was early in my pregnancy. It seemed so scathe because of all the unknown. Now he is such a blessing and not scathe to me at all.
God bless,
Jody
Hi Jody thank you so much for your kind words, it meant a lot. I have a 7 year old also, I wanted to have more children but not sure if it's in the cards for me. I know I cannot protect her from everything, but so wish I could. I did not know about her DS until she was born, but also see her as a blessing!! God Bless you and your family.
DeleteHi Elizabeth:) I just found your bloc a few days ago. You seem like a amazing mom and your kiddos sound awesome!
ReplyDeleteYou are too sweet thanks so much!!!!
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