Monday, December 31, 2012

2012 Don't Let the Door Hit Ya Where the Good Lord Split Ya

Thanks for the memories, the heart ache, the happy times, the wonderful times. 

I learned a lot this year.

January- I turned 35 and my girl went off all of her heart medications, I remember never being so excited.

February- Loving spending time with the kids, it was a time of staying indoors a lot, and we celebrated Valentine's Day

March- Our 10th Wedding Anniversary
April- Our little girl was learning and doing so much.

May/June- We made new friends at the down syndrome association

July- My little boy turned 7

August- My little girl turned 1
September- Hubby turned 38 and little guy started 2nd grade

October- Our First Buddy Walk
November- We spent Thanksgiving at home and I cooked my first turkey
December-  Had a wonderful Christmas together and had lots of Elf on the Shelf fun

Friday, December 28, 2012


I want to really get organized in 2013, like serious Martha Stewart everything has a place kind of organization. You know the kind of house you walk into and everything has a bin or a basket and every basket and bin has it's own place.  Ahhhhh dream a little dream!!!!
So I began my venture yesterday and got my 16 month old's toys in the living room all organized, love it just have to come up with a better lableling system because she tries to wrip them off.

How do you organize, I would love to hear about your projects?

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Such A Horrible Day

My son walked in the door after school today, threw his schoolbag on the floor, everyday I ask him to please pick up his bag and stop leaving it on the floor.  Today was different, today I hugged him and kissed him and told him how much I love and appreciate him.  There are so many families who will never get to do that again, never get to hug or kiss their children, never help them with their homework, never experience them learning to read, never hear their laughter, never touch their sweet little faces again.  My heart aches for those parents, those people who lost someone yesterday in the Newtown Ct, School Masacre.  My heart aches for those poor little ones who were so excited to be at school, so excited for the holidays to come, so happy in their safe place, to have that all torn away from them.  For the children who survived they too are forever changed, their innocence lost.  I am so sad, so upset as a mother, as a former teacher as a human being.  My heart aches for those poor parents, I pray that they will get through this most horrific time, I pray that they will find peace, I pray that they will live their lives in honor of their children.
I guess we all will learn something from this, I have learned not to sweat the small stuff anymore, love your kids, love them, hug them, let them know what you love about them, spend time with them, enjoy them, because you just never know, you just never know.  God Bless you Newtown, CT!!!!!!

Monday, December 3, 2012


So I have begun this dialogue in my head upteen million times, you know how it goes.  I am going to change, I am going to be healthy, I am going to exercise 75 times a day and I am going to have the body I want once and for all, dang it.  Nothing is going to get in my way, nothing except for this thing called life.
Sleep, glorious sleep I seem to be lacking in that area lately, between my snoring husband and my teething daughter, hours of sweet precious sleep are few and far between, so the thought of waking up at 4 am to exercise is not exactly my idea of fun, but I do know that I have to do something, I have to make time to concentrate on my health. 
Somehow, as a mom I get so consumed with everyday life, so stuck in a rut.  I will usually give myself excuse after excuse of why I can't start now, it's the whole I'll get back on track on Monday routine, until I have tried and retried a whole 52 Monday's and if I had only started on Monday 1 where would I be today?
I know I am not alone, lots of people feel the same way. I tend to get overwhelmed with the thought of making time for myself, doing things for myself, it all sounds wonderful, looks great on paper, but when it comes to doing it the guilt sets in, I should be doing something for someone else plays over like a broken record in my head.  How do you get rid of that, it doesn't just go away, it can't, not for a mom, can it?    My daughter needs so much, attention, therapy, how do I take time away from her to concentrate on me, it seems so selfish.  The little time I get to spend with my son, because of school is usually spent doing homework, making dinner, and cleaning.  I do try to spend one day every week with just him, why can't I do that for myself.

I grew up with a mom who worked 7 days a week, who never did anything for herself. So I guess I learned from her that once you have kids you are no longer a priority, no longer important.  I have to work on this mindset because I do realize that it is not healthy, but it is going to be hard erasing these thought and feelings.  What do you think? Do you feel the way I do?  Do you feel the opposite? Let me know!!!!!