My husband says since I have had Leah, I have become a different person in a good way, I have opened up more, made friends, learned to enjoy going out, started appreciating myself more, learned to let people in and to let people help me and to care about me, I guess I was always a pretty tough nut to crack, maybe I still am who knows. Anyway I will say this, for me to become very good friends with someone at 34 years old was a HUGE step for me. I have been so closed off to people in the past 6 or 7 years that I swore I would never let anyone in, not give anyone the chance to hurt me. So Leah has taught me to live, taught me to appreciate friendships, to enjoy people, to enjoy spending time with people. She has taught me to love, to love my family, to love my friends, to love myself. She has errupted a creativity in me, a yearning to learn, to do, to feel like I have never done before.
In the past 5 months I have grown as a person, I have become someone that I am starting to appreciate, I am starting to admire, I am starting to even like every now and then.
In the past I used to believe that people only hung out with me because they felt the had to or that they felt sorry for me, now I believe that I am just as good a person as they are and just as I value the time that I spend with them, they value the time they spend with me, I am worth spending time with. I have become a person that wants to improve myself, I have become a person who wants to have fun and try new things. My husband jokes and tells me he doesn't know who I am anymore, but I believe that he enjoys all the things I have found in myself, this new found confidence that I am worthy of love, worthy of friendship, worthy of good things in my life.